のたうちまわる日々。

先週大好きだった先輩がこの秋に結婚すると聞き、絵に描いたように
のたうちまわってました。

いつかこの痛みが癒えて、笑えるといいなぁというのと
最近どこでも本音でつぶやけないから、書き留めて
おこうと思う。


ただの見栄っ張りとかかっこつけなのかもしれないけど
重たいものがすっきりなくなったら社交辞令じゃなくて心から
おめでとうって思えたらって、その日が来ることを心待ちに
してます。


June 3rd/
Let'S stop thinking.
There are lot of things without answer.


June 2nd/
Just only now,at least half year there were a
eraser in my head.

June 2nd/
But I'm not going to let me rot.
Be invinceble,too!

June 2nd/
The Happiest for me is someone stay with me.
Even if I can't becaome cheerful,
I'm released from thinking about him.

Jine 1st/
That's because I'm so distressed.
I can't help it.

June 1st/
(When I saw his group name of IP messenger,said"Too global!!")
I think it is hard for him.
I become eager to help him, and listen to him.
And I become eager to ask him how he is feeling.

But,now I'm somehow so scary,and can't do anything.

May 31st/
I wanna go somewhere far away.